| WEEKEND VACATION!! |
[15 Apr 2007|11:22am] |
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Queen: Bohemian Raphsody |
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I am officially going to San Francisco at the end of the month.
Only for 3 days but better than nothing.
I'm excited.
I bought my plane tickets.
Such an adult feeling buying my first planes tickets myself.
Foody's party is gonna be awesome!
Wish my luck and fun on my trip!
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| life changes... |
[31 Mar 2007|03:36pm] |
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Incubus: Are You In? |
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I am now twenty-one!
It's nice to know I can drink anytime I want.
I haven't been to any bars or clubs.
I'm not going to Vegas for a while..
but the thought of possibility is exciting.
My birthday was great!
My friends setup a get together at Rueben's house.
I had a great time with my favorite people.
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| i lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitter end. |
[08 Mar 2007|11:23am] |
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John Mayer |
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I told the great guy who was incredibly sweet that I wasn't so into, the truth. He said he understood also said "don't worry. it's not a big deal". But then he said it didn't work that way to be friends with him still.
I'm upset to lose a friend like him by doing the right thing.
I completely understand his stance,
but wish it weren't so.
I cried and that surprised me.
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[04 Mar 2007|07:27pm] |
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I try so hard to believe your lies,
but you don't make them very convincing.
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| my interesting weekend. |
[25 Feb 2007|11:33am] |
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The Fray |
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I had to the worst drinking experience in my life!
Mark the calendar... February 23, 2007.
I got sooo shit faced it was ridiculous. I didn't even drink that much! I had ONE shot of tequila, 2 Bud Lights, and a 6 pack of apple cider beer. I was drunk to the point of stumbling and not being able to stand straight. For everyone who knows me, you all know I NEVER get like that! I ended up kissing Adam, leaving him cause I got a phone call from Brandon. We had a very random and long conversation about us... just when I'm done with that he comes at me with this speech of how he likes me a lot but is all fucked up cause of his ex... blah blah blah. And some other shit I don't really remember cause I was so fucked up. Perfect time of him to call and have this talk with me when I'm too drunk to remember it all or even respond and tell him my side of the story. During this great conversation I am throwing up then end up sitting on the curb. My family finds me and takes me home to bed where I pass out. I threw up in bed, twice. Woke up and threw up all day until 3 PM. Wonderful day!
I also ran in another stupid boy of the past. I love how they play off that suddenly everythings cool and that they didn't fucken dick you. Giving hugs, saying hi, introducing you to scandalous bitches, calling me VIV (which only my FRIENDS do), and asking for cigarettes and having conversations with you. The thing I hate most is that I still think he's cute and am still angry at him for being a dick.
I also ran into Brandon at another party last night... it was very weird. He tried to invite me to the Yardhouse with him and his friends but I'm not 21 so I didn't get to go. He then says bye and asks for a kiss? Hmmm... yeah... I dunno. He is trouble. Totally screwing with my head.
And now there is Adam. >>sigh<< He is cute, a nice guy. We have fun and laugh together a lot. He interests me. I dunno what's gonna happen there. I'm not too sure if I even want anything to happen.
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| my mother is a CUNT! |
[31 Jan 2007|09:20am] |
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KIIS FM morning talk |
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My mother is fucken STUPID.
Last night Lauren and Rueben came by. I ask her to sew Rueben's sweater. She then goes on some bull shit tangent that she doesn't want to bring friends over cause she doesn't have time to watch them. She like to think that all my friends who come over are going to steal from us. I then argue with her that she's fucken retarded and that she doesn't pay attention to anyone else who come through our door but, oh my friends... ALL THIEVES! I slam two doors she then come follows me in all crazy yelling that I am worthless and how I don’t do anything and that I don’t give her money. I yell about how I don’t ask her for shit, I work and pay for my own stuff. She then says “If you can do everything for yourself then you can live on your own.” I asked why I have to give her money and pay rent when my older brother lived there until he was 29 and didn’t pay for shit! Her reply was “I’m old and I don’t want to take care of any of you anymore so get out.” I walk away and go upstairs; she continues to yell stupid shit at me. I snap and start kicking my door, crying, dropped my pizza, and yell “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?” I grab my shit and leave, go outside to Lauren and Rueben and bawl my eyes out.
I spent the night at my aunt’s in Covina. I wished she was home to see me cry. She would drive straight down to my mother and tell her she’s full of shit to tell me to leave. Too bad she doesn’t come back from vacation until February 18th.
I woke up this morning at 5:45 and drove home pack up a weeks worth of shit. I am determined to stay in Covina for at least 4 days then I’ll go home. I doubt that will teach my mom anything. She could give a fuck less if I was there or not. I know she will NOT call me and tell me to come home. My and the cousin decided that she got in a fight with her shit-head ex so she’s all bitter betty taking shit out on me, like always.
How embarrassing is it for a mother to have to ask her child for money? What kind of mom says “I don’t want to take care of you anymore, so leave.”
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| baby steps is all it takes... |
[26 Jan 2007|02:39am] |
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"never allow someone to become your priority while you to become their option"
I did something good for myself.
New 'self-worth program' here I come!
I don't like being woken up,
asked to go places,
then said "naw it's cool" to.
For the sake of me, I stayed.
I'm proud of me.
[dirty secret: I just wanted to go see him.]
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